another storm the eagle encountered

has it ever occurred to you that any achievement you once thought of as your greatest blessing, turned out to be a curse? ok, a word 'curse' maybe a little harsh. But, u got the idea? i mean, now you have contempt for something that you cherished maybe just a while ago. that's exactly what i'm feeling right now. wish i could turn back the time, and not to choose a road i've taken. maybe, just maybe, if i turned a different direction, i might not get hurt. But then, if i hadn't taken that same road, i wouldn't have tasted the sole happiness that once was mine. Is it worth it? i still dont know the answer. i cherished it but at the same time i despised it with all my heart.