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I'm spending 5-days-holiday in jakarta....nooo....T.T all flights to bali are fully booked, geez annoying. But it's okay, able to use the ticket money for shopping hehe...tomorrow dvd hunting day!! it's been so long since the last time i watched the recent movie ^^ well, that and studying for a big test are my only activities for holiday. Actually i'm a lil bit pissed, i've arranged to meet my old friend in bali and hang out ~the last time i saw her was in high school graduation party at Jimbaran~ man, time really goes by fast. Since she's studying in China, it's not easy to meet, always either the unsynchronized holiday schedule or things like this, have no ticket to bali hiks maybe another time. And one thing to add my disappointment, my mom said that today my fam and my church community in bali spent a night together in somewhere cool **this is my mom's way to tease me --> somewhere cool!!!!**
lately also i rarely saw my friends in college, maybe they've got jobs already, buuut somehow i want to turn back the time just to skip morning classes huehehe
After spent a night in Puncak, all i got is...bruise...well it was fun though, spent time with friends, buuuut....sooo tired, and not all teachers could go with us. Hhhh can't wait to go to sleep, ja ne
I just read my friend's blog and suddenly i was awaken!! She wrote something about how she had been provided with all the best. And i don't know...when i read that, somehow I miss my Lord a lot. Lately, i've been away from Him although i know He's been by my side all the time, but i spent less time with Him and tried to solve things with my own effort alone. If nothing went according to my will, i was depressed and yes, nothing good came out of it, nothing was solved, no peace at all. Finally i knew why i acted so selfishly and had a very short temper lately ~huehe2~ ^^ if you're trying to do things on your own and putting Him aside, hmm....i have no doubt that you're gonna end up like me today, depressed and feel like the whole world is going against you ***well, it's a hiperbole again fufufu***
And right now, just a few minutes ago, He taught me with His own way,
how sweet, He indeed loves me sooo much. And suddenly, there's no cloud in my heart again ^^ even though i know, there's still that あほ (forgive me Lord).
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life is again, like a box of chocolate, you'll eventually pick the bitter one
After finished reading The Alchemist, i started to think about my own dream, what i desire the most. Well, it's not like i didn't have any dreams before reading that book, but it keeps coming to my mind that what i'm doing right now is faaar...far away from what i yearn for. Let me make this clear, i said that not because i hate my current situation, in fact, i'm sooo damn happy and grateful for what He has given me so far, and indeed, they're beyond even my wildest dreams. See, that's what makes me think. What i have now...i wouldn't exchange it with anything else ever, but....to tell da truth, not what i really enjoy doing it. See..see...how disturbing. And one more question, how do you differentiate between dream (i.e. something you really want to do) and a hobby ~maybe not a hobby, but something you think you can do without getting bored until you die~? That's confusing............... ................ hah never mind, forget it, but u know what, i think someday i'll enter an art school, have my own studio, and open an exhibition huahahaha opened just for a limited audience, family only ^^ aaaaaah ばか ですね？
about my training, only one comment i can give, "It's getting tougher and tougher than ever before". I often find my hands full these days, there's a lot to study, i mean a looot. But everything's still running pretty well, nothing goes outside track yet.
Ow this 17 august, hope i can go home, miss my friends n family so much, and my lil sister huehehehe i have sooo many stories (read: curhat) to tell her. Well if my mom gives her "okay" word, then nothing can stop me from going back home ;o~
aaah my dearest puppy also, hang in there dear, i'll hug you pretty soon hoho
この blog を 書いてから、日本語を べんきょうします。 Halaaaaah what the hell!!!!
