random thought

no matter how I turned it around or dressed it up, the excuse offered still sounds a bit off to me. Hmmphh.. eva's wrath huahaha... (no, kidding)... but seriously, I don't buy it at all.
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you have no idea what I'm talking about, don't you? good...
as usual, a weird and stupid thought popped just like that.

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hey, been thinking lately, by the time I'm through here, in this !@#@!$%ing country Japan, I'm sure as hell I'll be too bushed to see straight let alone think!! So, I'm wondering whether I'll need to put my life on hold a couple of weeks and set off to a very much anticipated getaway, and perhaps I'll see then what I can do afterward.

Uganda, Kenya, and Ireland are what I have in mind right now. Wait... Uganda and Kenya?? Am I gradually losing my mind? Pretty much so I guess hahaha....
Teaching English to the locals in Uganda while spending my free time absorbing the I-believe-breathtaking views or taking care of HIV patients + teaching English in Kenya. Either way, Ireland will still mark the end of my traveling, hopefully, next year. For the time being, 65% goes to Kenya ^^

Can I actually go there? We'll see...
Part of the reasons why I'm considering volunteer traveling over ordinary traveling is bcoz I think I've been too hard on myself lately and a bit demanding - which is good on other case but unfortunately not on this one. I don't really appreciate what I have. The traveling thing came out from it, from my being ungrateful enough and I admit it. So I need to do something about this or else I'll end up being !@#@%*ed up. I hope by teaching and helping those who are less fortunate will somehow do me any good and miraculously shape my character a bit haha. By lending a hand, it will make me feel human again khukhu... *duh!! like I'm not human already??*

err...

Things that happened lately indirectly exposed me for the weak, spoiled, self-centered individual that I am. Many times had I spent my days feeling sorry for myself, unsatisfied with everything. It's from something inside and I need to get away from here and go somewhere else. TRAVELING!!! If everything goes well, if He says yes, then... 11 months left to freedom!!!

Often in the quiet hours of the night or during idle time of the day when the distractions slip away that I realize I have absolutely no control over things.

Few minutes ago, I looked up at the sky, people say there are few places in the world where stars shine brighter. Certainly not in Tokyo.

skagit valley

Haah~ I HAVE to go there! I can spend hours and hours just for watching those stunningly beautiful tulips ::excited::
And here I am, keying* this blog and smiling to myself. Can't help it!! Skagit Valley, I have to go there... I will say this over and over again hahaha.. I don't want to go alone tho, I wanna share the moment with someone I hold dear.. ::at that time ^^::
Have added Skagit Valley to my wish list.. Yosh!!

*well, hackers tend to use this term rather than using the word 'typing'. Hm no, i'm not a hacker. I don't even have the slightest idea of how to hack khukhu.. But there's this book by Jeffrey Denver, Blue Nowhere, and I loovvee this book. It's all about hacker's world. Read it if you have time. Highly recommended ^^

:: but hey, why do i bother explaining this? ::